Wednesday, 23 August 2017

Days 80 - 83

Feeling a little down in the dumps today.

Had an appointment yesterday to discuss whether surgery would be an option for my back.

Turns out the answer to that is pretty much no.

Waiting on a second opinion from the Neurosurgeon after he reviews my scans, but the general consensus is that the problem with my back lies within the discs themselves not through nerve damage.

And because they don't think the nerves are being squished, the only way to 'fix' things would be spinal fusion surgery. And that is apparently just as likely to make an even bigger mess of my back so it's a no-go.

It's just kind of depressing because I've essentially just got to live with it. The suggestions are to ease back into everything that hurts, like sitting, walking, standing, doing everything, over a gradual course of months. She said even something like sitting - the recommendation is to do it for no more than 10 minutes a few times a day. After that ten minutes doesn't hurt anymore then build up to double that or something....

And they can't say this will make me feel great, just that I won't get the cycle of 'doing nothing gets too much, so then I do too much when makes the problem worse than it was, so then I do nothing and repeat.'

Anyway ... there isn't anything I can do about it so I guess it's just down to me to accept that I will forever have a level of pain that makes functioning at a level I want a hard task.

I'm not sure what this means going forward, except that right now it feels like I will always be in pain and always need medication. And that's a hard thing to accept. It's kind of weird to me that in this day and age we can cure so much but we can't fix this kind of thing and you get told over and over, that there is nothing that can be done....

To me that says that I may as well do what I want because I can't change the pain regardless. Why bother modifying things if it's going to hurt anyway? May as well just get things done and deal with the debilitation after.

Sorry for the moping. I will be back to myself soon enough I'm sure.

Saturday, 19 August 2017

Day 79

August 19th 2017

So, seriously, it's the middle of August.

It's actually insane how quickly this year has flown by. Remember when you were a little kid and time seemed to go by so slowly. I've always felt it is kind of unfair that the older you get the faster everything slips past.

Sometimes I just want to freeze time and be able to savour it for that little bit longer.

The Social One got back from her trip to England today and it was really nice to see her after three weeks away. I already miss the days when all of my babies were home with me. It's just a few short years ago but it also kind of feels so long.

Just some ponderings, no real reason. 💓✌

Thursday, 17 August 2017

Day 77

August 17th 2017

I know I've missed a fair few days, but in all honesty I just didn't know what to write.

The events in the news lately have just made me SO SAD.

I want to rant about The Don - the man who is condoning bigotry, rascism and hate and is currently the 'leader' of the USA.

I want to scream and yell and cry, and say how could people be so awful. But people have always been awful, it's just that I thought we as a global humanity were headed in the direction of good. But we aren't. And I don't know how to cope with that.

What it boils down to is this.

LOVE IS LOVE AND HATE IS HATE.

My children know that people are people. How much melanin a person has in their skin is absolutely irrelevant, as is the religion or beliefs they hold in their personal life, as is whether they associate as a guy, girl, both or nothing, as is who they marry.

I hope my children are in the majority, I hope that many, many parents are raising their children as we are. I fear they are not.

Peace, Love and Tolerance. ALWAYS 💕✌💕

Saturday, 12 August 2017

Days 71 - 72

August 11-12 2017

I wish I was more technologically competent so I could share the sound right now.

It is bucketing down.

I know I keep harping about the weather but I'm having a hard time remembering the last time winter was this insane. It's seriously just massive cold fronts, one after the next with very little reprieve in between. This weekend we have apparently three massive fronts coming off the Indian ocean, all in the space of 48 hours - including tomorrow nights' which is expected to bring wind in excess of 125km p/h.

😑😑😑😑

On another note, here is the completely adorable Penelope Wonderwoman modelling part of her Halloween costume. She has chosen to be Rainbow Dash, one of the My Little Ponies 💖

Friday, 11 August 2017

Days 67 - 70

August 7 - 10

This winter is trying to kill me, I'm sure of it.

It's not so much that it's cold, it's winter in Western Australia. It's not really that cold (although it is).

It's the cloud cover and rain. It's doing my head in.

So it's not even the middle of August and we've pretty much reached our entire monthly average for rain already. July was ridiculously wet. It's like living in Victoria again.

Sunday, 6 August 2017

Days 64 - 66

August 4 - 6 2017

So remember how we were going to build a couple of tiny house studios in the back yard?

Well we aren't doing that anymore.

Instead, the Eldest One is staying living away from home - which is actually much better for our relationship.

And the Social One will be living in a vintage caravan that we bought on Friday!

Way easier and considering the old septic tank placement in the yard, considerably less potentially gross. The City and the plumber were both pretty adamant about the fact that while the tanks were supposed to be emptied when the house was converted to sewer on the 90s, there is a high likelihood that they weren't. And we can't build anything anywhere near them unless we make sure ....

So yeah ... not overly upset about just getting a camper instead! Septic tanks, full or empty, can stay safely in the ground and un-messed with.

I also finished painting the black cornices in the kitchen and hallway, made plans for the vintage Flamingo mural in the bathroom and the tropical leaf mural in the bedroom AND bought an original 50s anodised aluminium light fixture in PINK!!

It's going to look amazing in the kitchen.

In other news, Miss Penelope has become quite the expert dressing herself, the dogs now spend their time alternating between actual dog like behaviour and something resembling sloths.

Also, we have a wonderful variety of creatures in the yard, despite the dogs. We have seen green tree frogs, lizards, spiders, worms, lorikeets, galahs and cockatos, and on Friday added Stick Insects to that list. 

Thursday, 3 August 2017

Day 63

August 3rd 2017

I finished painting the cornices and door frames in the hallway today!

I also made plans for the bathroom - replace the taps and shower head and get rid of the wallpaper.

Then paint.

Walls are either going to be white or vintage green turquoise. Trim will be black and the ceiling pink 😊

Then I am going to paint vintage style flamingos on the wall.

I feel like the bathroom is going to be my new happy place 😁

Wednesday, 2 August 2017

Days 61 - 62

August 1/2 2017

AUGUST!!!

WHEN DID THAT HAPPEN??!

So we've basically spent the last 2 days enjoying the fact that while ridiculously cold, there has been no wind or rain.

Yay!

We did a little rearranging today in the living room as I hadn't been overly happy with the furniture placement.

Actually completely happy with it now and we have as a result a massive blank wall ready for music poster art 💓