Thursday, 31 December 2015

Goodbye 2015

Well it's the very last day of 2015. Time to reflect on the year that's behind and ponder on the year that is to come. 

2015 was a difficult year and one I am happier than normal to see the back of. There have been so many opportunities over the last twelve months for me to say "why me?". And in all honesty, there have been so many times where I just couldn't cope. My mental energy to deal with all the assorted crap that has been thrown, was zapped and useless. This year more than any other, has seen me falter in my normal optimism and cheerfulness. I have hidden myself away, I have cried and I have sunk into some pretty deep black holes. 
I don't need to go into details of what went on; those who need to know, know. And for those who don't know, just trust me when I say that we've dealt with some very serious and heavy (for want of a better word) stuff. And it's been exceptionally difficult. 

But you know what? I'm okay. I am alive. And I AM coping. I am getting there, putting one foot in front of the other every day and I have accomplished a lot in the mean time too. My little business is growing and doing well, and our plans for the future are looking bright and do-able. 

So this New Years' Eve, I want to say thank you. Thank you to those who have understood me, who have put up with me, and who have stood by me despite the emotional rollercoaster I've been on (and subsequently dragged them onto). Thank you to those who still love me and who still make me smile. Thank you for not giving up when I was a miserable cow lashing out at those closest to me.

My goals for 2016 are pretty simple really. I just want to be happy and healthy, and I want my family to be happy and healthy. That's it. Nothing more. 

So to that end, I will choose to focus on the good. To get up each morning and remember that I am thankful for all I have in my life; there are so many who have so much less. 
I am alive, I am loved and I love. We are safe and in the grand scheme of things we have very little to worry about. The bad things will happen regardless of whether I focus on them, so I am choosing to not think about that side of things. I'd rather enjoy the moments we create in the here and now, than worry about what's going to happen next. 

And in those times where pain gets too much to bear I will cry and I will allow myself to be sad or frustrated. But I am choosing to understand that it's temporary, and I know I have people around me who will remind me of that fact. 

This coming year I am going to allow myself to say no. I am not going to over-commit myself, and I am not going to stress myself over what others might think. 2016 is the year I say "it's okay to do what you need to do for yourself and not feel guilty about that."

So from my very imperfect family to yours, from the screaming toddler and the moody teenagers and the slightly odd little boy, have a wonderful and safe New Year. Thanks for sticking around, and thanks for putting up with my (probably) insane sounding rants at times. 

May your 2016 be everything YOU hope for, and may you too, focus on the good. 

Tuesday, 8 December 2015

Our elf Bernard arrived here last week. He turned up in our Christmas tree on the front porch, wrapped in brown paper with postage stamps on him, and he even had a suitcase this year!!! I feel like he's making himself comfortable!

We did have to rescue him and bring him inside though, as he somehow ended up on the front lawn during the course of the day. We're not sure if a passer-by was trying to steal him, or an errant dog or cat thought he'd be fun to play with but either way, he needed to be inside! He mustn't have minded us having to pick him up though, as he has been up to all sorts of mischief since then!!

He wrapped up Montgomery the Moose head in Christmas paper (quite badly too I might add!), 

spent a bit of time in the freezer with the Lego men and Christmas tree icecubes!

We've also found him hiding under my paper Christmas tree forests, swinging from a garland, chatting with old Ted, and hiding in the plant on the kitchen counter. This morning we found him swinging on our Snoopy lights! 
I wonder what he'll get up to for the rest of the month!!

Miss Penelope and the Little Dude have been very excited to find him most mornings, although we were all taken out by a nasty stomach bug over the weekend, so looking for Bernard was pretty low on their radar. 

This was the general mood in our house over the last few days.....

Even the dogs are just 'blurgghh'. 

We did have a little bit of a revelation of sorts a few days before the-second-practice-run-this-year-of-the-Zombie-Apocalypse hit us though.....

Look how long Miss Penelope's hair is when it's actually smooth!!!! And it's not that she doesn't ever have her hair washed or brushed. Just that we don't normally get time to take notice of it, as she hates having it done and within 5 minutes it's back to crazy bed head frizz. She is also still going through this weird no shower or bath issue, so getting her clean is such freaking hard work......
But isn't it pretty!?

In other news, we bought a hopefully amazing mattress over the weekend, and with it comes an adopted koala!! 
Well....kind of but not really literally..... See, the mattress company is the Koala Mattress Company and with every purchase they adopt a koala at the Port Macquarie Koala Hospital on your behalf. 

So world, meet Dunbogan Dave, the newest member of our family. [insert a billion smiley faces here]

And so to leave you all fully updated on our weird little collection of stories that we call our life, here are some photos of the moon that I took last week, or maybe it was the week before. I don't really remember except that they are awesome!